I’ve maybe mentioned it, but I was a theater nerd in high school.
many years ago
I haven’t done any acting/theater as an adult, except for one supporting role in a community theater play 19 years ago. I had a tremendously good time doing it, but, then, you know, life and living and work and family and . . .
oh the time goes by
Last night I auditioned for a role at a local theater.
I found out about the role last week and Lucie encouraged me to audition and I wanted to but, oh! I was terrified. It’s been so long. There’s a sort of in your face, arrogance and energy required to act and, while I certainly have it, I haven’t exercised those muscles in years.
Did I mention I was scared?
Pure and simple scared.
I waffled hard for two days, back and forth, over even scheduling an audition. It felt like jumping off a ledge.
But I did it.
Then I spent a few days fighting the anxiety and fighting the urge to call and cancel.
Then I went and auditioned.
And it went all right.
not great, not terrible
And I didn’t get the part.
And that’s okay.
Because I did it.
I rub my temples and, it occurs to me, how odd to feel both my fingers and my head.
I touch the center of my forehead and try to do both at once.
But I can’t.
I flip from one to the other. I feel my head then my fingertips then neither.
I drop my hand and resume the world.
in the gravel for olives
ignoring the tree
© Steve Mitchell 2014
a rowdy wind
as we dress to go out -
no waiting for rain
© Steve Mitchell 2014
Two days ago I posted my progress on a painting I’m making for a friend. At that time, I felt the painting was close but would still need a lot of work.
Well, yesterday I finished it (except for painting the outside edges) and, really, there wasn’t much more to do.
I wanted the painting rough and loose and yesterday, as I painted, all at once, I hit a point where I said to myself, Self, that’s it. You’re done. It’s maybe not ready for a gallery wall, but for an exterior block fence, out in the elements, sure to die a slow, faded, UV death at the mercy of the Arizona sun, it’s plenty good!
The photo is a little skewed and you can see the bottom and left edges, but you get the idea.
It was fun. I hope our friend enjoys it.